Hey friends:)))

  What's goin' on...r u good...hope u r cuz i am...actualy i'm great...it's deffinitely my favorite part of the day...wake up earlier in the morning...just make some coffee,well this morning didn' even had to do tht...my wife did it for me so..i'm just lying in my bad takin' this great coffee,listening this awesome albums on spotify called vintage cafe which is a jazzish version of some very known songs...it's nice...just,chilling and literaly not thinking of anything but enjoying the moment and priviledge..so cozy :)

I just know tht my day will be just awesome whn i start it like this....

I was thinking about writing a bit about this thing i always repeat when talking with friends or even with stranger sometimes....

It's about my point of view on human contact....cuz i literaly belive it's a cure for our body and soul....

I was watching this video where some psychologists explain the importance of it... 

Like..an tragedy occured..war or wht ever....and there was a some number of babies left without parents..

So they put thm in this hospital,where people will take care of thm...and they did...those nurses gave thm food,keeping thm clean and stuff but eventhough..almost one third of babies died..one by one...no explaination..no sickness no sympthoms..just a sudden baby death:(

They also realized afterwards tht the babies who were closer to hje doors were always good and those all tha way back were those dying cases...

So they had a theory...those closer to the doors and a hallway were safe cuzz there was always someone approaching thm,picking thm up and cuddle thm..which was not the case with those less fortunate all the way back:(((

Also logicaly thinking...a baby needs the morher's heartbit to hear and feel quite often cuzz for nine months tht was the rhythm of life for the baby...who's own little heart was synchronized with the mom's rhythm....

Now we are not babies anymore but we do need that human contact too...we are just too buisy with everyday life and never even think of making time for tht stuff..

It's so sad when you look at it...cuzz i don't care how old or serious you are...a normal person needs to feel love and to give love too...one of the basic things in our nature...that we skip with no problem..thinking of it as of some ridiculous childish thing...but it's so not..

Now...i'm a person that always liked to cuddle...i just love tht shit...cuzz my mom always did tht with us and i'm so greatful for tht but my dad was totaly not like tht...

Maybe...sometimes but i don' even know if that came naturaly to him cuzz there's this fuckin' thinking anywhere but specialy in countries such a serbia that man needs to be cold and emotionaless otherwise you're a cunt..,

Well now i realized tht you r a cunt everytime you don't actualy have the balls to show your soft side,and your emotions...

Luckily for me my wife is very cuddly women and we do tht constantly...we are all kissy,kissy and lovey dovey and tht's maybe cuzz we work different hours so we never have tht afterwork us-time like most couples do during the week but anyway we got that covered!

Actualy recently we both realized that when we wake up in the middle of the night we're like holding eachother or hugging...it's so cool,you just wanna stay in bed like tht a whole day long:)))

But again...my problem with single people...i belive tht most of them have a huge lack of this very important matter...and i don't care how happy you r  alone or how much you need a period when you don' want new people in your life...you need tht contact...

now i'm not saying you should ask random people on a street to hold your hand for five minutes...but even if you're single you still have friends,parents,relatives and gender is not an isshue you just need tht human closeness every once in a while for your soul for fuck sake!!!

So what i want you to do is i want you ask your friends next time you see thm...to hold your hand for a while..just tht...while you're taking coffee or just talk...

A hugging would even be better but take your time cuz i promise you...you'll feel uncomfortable...you and your friend...

But that feeling right there is the exact thing you need to kill with that contact...that feeling is your insecurity,vulnerability about things no one should be voulnerable with..it's your weakness...

Cure it,make it go away,make yourself more comfortable about everything you are and make more space for having someone you love in your life❤️

You be good now and have an awesome day ya all...love you😘😘😘

Real men love curves...

Hey biatches ...wazz up...come one gimme some shit talk...the reason why i'm doing this is because i like when people say shit about me and stuff...

Like...when i wrote a blog about me finding a new girl-friend and that i told her i'd fuck her..and my wife's best frend is for some reason reading my stuff and always likes my articles...except that one...

So my wife gave her a call just to catch up with her and she was like...hey btw,have you read andrija's blog...and she went like...yes...

My wife...so what do you think?

I'm thinking of stabing him hext time we have coffee together:))))

I fell in love with her right there...told her...when you say nice stuff about me i can like you...but when you point out something about me that is like shitty,bout me being and asshole and stuff...i instantly love you...cuz to me that's what friendship is all about...

Suckin' eachother's dicks is boring..,so c'mon...tell me how much i suck...:)))

Well today i'm gonna share with you something i've recently discovered about my sexuality😬

You all get that looks of a persons body is about being sexy,about feeling good in your own skin,also it's realy healthy to have some activities,eat good healthy food...and keep your body fat on a decent level..

You also know tht i'm doing this sport for 20+ years which is about outhern looks so you can imagine how important tht is to me...

When we talk about the best looking girls..i don't have any preforations...blond,brunettes,black,whiteasian..tall short...no way...for me all tipes and races can be good or not so...tex..girls who say ...couldn' ever fuck a black guy have some big isshues...

My personal choice is somewhere between bikini and fitness...so she needs to be lean..somewhere between 8-10% body fat...and to be all about training,healthy food no booze,smokes and tht shit...

So i guess you get the picture...and for many,these girls and girls like these are hot,sexy...and stuff...but

I don't know these girls i've never touched thm,hugged...so basicly...they look good...to my eyes...

As you might know or you don't..my wife is struggling with weight..she went up like 15kg from when we got married...as most people do once they stop giving a fuck...

Now...i'm talking about her looks..to me her sexappeal never changed cuz...i'm so away from that time when looks is sexy...tht's kids way...looks can give you an attraction but to me only women can be sexy...her chemistry,her inside...and i promisse you i'm not trying to sound like a sleazeball...i've fucked the girl who's always gonna be the best looking girl i did...but tht was it...i couldn't get horny at all...we didn' match it was wrong...

But my wife used to have this fuckable personality and that's all you need to have..

Now when she got fat...she still looked sexy...cuzz she's very feminine..so big ass nice waist...ok fake boobs but i personaly LOVE thm so that's it...

But her realized very soon tht she doesn' look the way she used to...

So what she did was..she started to skip her gym workouts,start not giving a fuck...and basicly losing self confedence...

Now that thing is a total turn off...for both of us...when we had sex she felt like a fat pig and i felt as i'm fucking a damaged and not happy person and tht is so fucked up..

When they say you lose passion in marrige...that's what they'r talking about...you don' lose nothing but a positive perspective about yourself...

So we still did good..i loced her she loved me...but we had sex way less thn before,sometimes even months went by...but i still belive tht all you need is love..so i don' know bout her but me..,i never even considered quitting,leaveing her...nothing like tht...i never ever quit on somebody i love.

Now...years went by...my wife was dieting,not dieting,fighting,crying...but eventualy sex got better,way more frequent...so it's cool,i'm cool,she's cool...we're good!

Now recently...we were watching tv or a movie...laying on our sofa...cuddling and her belly was naked...and since she's my little plump,she's got some fat to squeeze there...

So i start plaing with it like with childrens playing dough...she was laughing,saying stop it it's disgusting...

But to me it went totaly in differend direction...

It took me like just a couple times to squeeze tht soft fat...and i got this almost painful boner and a blood rushed in my brain as when a virgin school boy sees his teacher's bare boobs:))))

Guys...i was on fire...

She like noticed and start saying..oh my god..i knew you're sick but tht sick...it's a whole new chapter:))))

I was like,i know...for me too...don't have a fuckin' clue where's this came from...

I like fitness chicks not chubby....but the truth to the matter was that i like to look at fitness girls...but i like to touch something else...

So we had this raging sex tht night...laughed about it like crazy but next morning we woke up...and i was kidding about my fat fatish,but ass soon as i start touching her fat again...shit...i almost rapped her:))))

So i was thinking...how's this possible...but if you just think about it everything is quite clear...firstly..when you fuck...you don' look at the women from five meters distance...she is so close to you that all you basicly have is a sence of touch...

And we were analysing it...i said like...take my biceps for instance...even when i get fat you don't get alot fat there so it's pretty lean muscle...i was like...touch it,feel it,squeeze it...it's like so dense,and hard...almost plastic and lifeless...

But touch fat..it's soft,it's feminine..well at least from my own men point of view..but realy...i like girls to be the oposite of me...cuzz i'm a guy...and asking same things i have.. from a girl is fuckin' gay...

Now i'm not saying tht people who fuck lean chicks are gay...i'd fuck anyone or anything without coock and balls so...i'm just describing my personal views...

 Now i'd still like my wife to get lean but totaly not because of me or wht i want,.,but because she realy likes the sport and train hard and of course she would like to look as she does...

But also tht thing about self confidence...think tht that would be a skyrocketing for her...cuz success is one of the best turn ons ever...

And wht can be more sexier than strong,successful and self confidend women😍😍😍😍

#likeagirl #likeagirl #likeagirl

Have a great weekend everybody❤️

Alanya...here we come!!!!

Hey ya all...what is happenin' you don' call you don' show...no comments like...hey bro..you rock..or...man you blow big time...go fuck yourself...nothing...

my beautiful friends...when you laugh,nothing's funny and when you fart it doesn' smell...nah...just kidding..it gotta smell...

Anyhoo..wanted to write a word or two about the upcoming vacation which is gonna be in alanya turkey:))))

Everybody who knows me knows tht i don' drink don' do drugs...and therefore i am terrible party guy...

Me..i like takin' it easy...having good food,nice beach and something to fuck...and i'm happy....

I'm saying something and not someone to fuck just for those anal people to piss thm off:)))

Well in my case...my wife is who i'll fuck and i more thn happy with that fact!!!

We've booked a hotel room with kitchen cuzz to me tht's a must wherever i go...restaurants,eating out...sure sometimes...but i have six-seven meals a day..firstly i'm not tht rich and even if i were..i can't eat like tht...so...i cook my food...

And to me tht's like something like wiping ass..you need to shit and if you don't want to smel shit all day lond you need to wipe it...also you need food and therefore you need to take care of tht...and i'm not talking about bodybuilding at all...i'm just saying tht people who are reducing drasticaly their nutrition standard while on vacation...to me..they're not on vacation...

They are paying for having a week or two to be something they are not...cuz they think their life is miserable...

The only difference for me between home and vacation is tht i don' need to work,and i'm somewhere else and not in stockholm...which don' get me wrong...i LOVE...i'm just saying...

You have these trash couples...having vacation with kids...and when they do the research...first things that is a must dor them is...that it's all inclusive...which...ok...i get...cuz,it's food,you have it alot so...that's good...

Second must is day care for kids...people...i need to say somthing...you don' deserve kids and also you don' deserve to live you worthless peaces of shit....

You are supposed to go to tht fuckin' vacation so you can have a quality time with your family...cooking nice food for your kids...spending time with thm,bonding in a way tht everyday life doesn' alow you you selfish morherfuckers...

Third must is a swiming pool in the hotel...so...that the only thing they can do than is to sunbath...and drink...not having to watch their kids....just live their dream...and their dream is fuckin' sad story...that's all i can say..,

And don't you even dare to tell me...oh, it's easy for you you don' have kids...let tell you something you shit people...me and my sister used to have these 4-6 weeks vacation with our mom and dad...we used to hang out with them at the beach all the time...mom used to carry food and stuff dad taught us diving,swiming..and sure we hang out with other kids at the beach all the time too...how sick is that...a?

Pool...you suppose to swim in salty water for fuck sake...you're at the sea or ocean...swiming pool you have in your city whn you ged bck,fuckers....

Well...who knows maybe it's wrong being satisfied with your life,and to love your kids and spend time with them...maybe it's normal to do this personal regrets and complex healing by doin'g something you usualy can't do like go to thailand and fuck 14 year old girl..cuz you know you're not alowed tht in your country and over there you're the man...with fifty bucks you can make tht child do just about anything...

God...i need to have sex...i'm to edgy:))

Well any way...once we've booked the tickets and hotel...we realized tht alanya is a fuckin' party place.......

When you google it it's just tits and booze..and i'm bringing my brown rice and steel cit oats:((((

Well i just hope tht we have a nice time,cleopatra beach is beautiful,the food i know is good...cuz when can have something nice i would like to taste some authentic turkish food...desserts to...like one one of my favorites..baklava😋

Anyway...i'll try to put on some pics and tell you all about it so...checkin' out;)))

Sociopathic society

Hey people...what's up...again,long time since i haven't write shit,a...don't worry i haven't forgot bout ya...i'm just having this awesome,exciting life so i don't have time...lol..yeah right:)))

Well i gave some thoughts to stuff...and as i wrote in my last article i fell in love with my friend and it make me feel good about myself again...cuzz before for many years back i haven't felt tht...you know...pure love...

It was so frustrating the fact that whenever i meet a new person,i like him or her...but no love...like,i can meet tht person,have coffee with but it's always like..if tht person just decides to quit seeing me,i wouldn' five a shit cuzz from the begining there was no love...

So as years went by i was quite...well,not happy bout this fact,especialy when i feel tht all the people i know like or even love me way more than i even like thm...it made me ask myself am i tht kind of an asshole i've become...before i used to love...realy love people and care way more thn i do now...so to me the diagnosis was pretty simple...i'd turned into a SOCIOPATH:(((

Having tht thought about you is not something to be proud of...you realy feel fucked up...and i've watched some documetaries that alot of young people visting a shrink complaining tht they can't feel anymore...like can't feel emotions of any kind...

But as that same documetary said...the right people enters and dissapiers from my lives at the perfect time...and so it was for me...

My dear friend came to me like she was sent by god...and totaly changed a perception of how i see me...

It took me 15 minutes at our first coffee date to expirience a fucking eruption of love,and tht gave me hope tht my emotions are still here,working fuckin' awesome,and i realized tht i wasn't a fuckin' siciopath...and tht felt fuckin' beautiful:)))

Now i gave alot of thinking about it and how come that before for me it was so easy to feel for others and now it's so hard...

My first though was...maybe it's because i lived in serbia...people are different outhere..but since i don't belive in tht shit...tht people are warm and cold..i'v continued my research...

And than...it's start clearing out...what was the thing about me 15 years ago tht now is not...age...i was younger...but,does tht mean tht i became emotionaly numbed as i got older????

I know i'm not...now,after my friend i even can say i'm positive i'm not..so who changed...PEOPLE CHANGED!!!

 

People got older...i don' hang out with 18 year old boys and girls...i'm mostly with people similar age like me...

So what happened? They got older in that emotionsl sence...remember when you were youngster...how easy was to talk about yourself...telling people...about your problems but not just those convinient ones but all kinds of problems...you were totaly relaxed to joke hard and make fun of eachother without worrying you may look like a fool or like a loser...you'd simply say it...straight out,no sugarcoating...

And also,if your friend do something you think it's wrong..you would say..hey moron...why would you do tht like that...do it like this...etc...

Well now you got old and firstly polite...so you don't wana cross that line and sound roude..but also you yourself have set the boundaries about what stuff you don' appreciate of being asked....

Well let me tell you something about those lines and boundaries...it's a direct reason why you don't love the way you did and why others don't love you the wY you want them to...and you know what's the saddest part????

The part that makes me cry is when i hear a shot load of you saying..well than i don't need new friends...or then i don't need a boyfriend or a girlfriend or any new relationship...and why is tht????

The easiest question ever...it's because YOU have become a sociopath or you're in a one way street to become one..at the best!!!!

Not being able to share your emotions and face your vulnerabilities in front of others is safest way of pushing people away from you...

You're basicly giving a signals tht you don't wanna go there or tht you're not ready for deeper conversation..,so basicly wht you do..you switch to some more conceniant talks...which are basicly chit chattin' and belive me on this...no one will fall for you after chit chatting!

Having a first conversation with a fat person and that person never even brings up a food disorder or lazyness for excercising.,,i just give the fuck up...tht person is totaly shut down and in total denial...and to me that's the persong tht needs a psychiatrist not a friend!

I have a coffee for the first time with a person and i'm not asked am i using steroids...explains only one...

That person wants us to suck eachothers dicks and not realy hang out...like a compete bummer...

But let me explain myself a bit deeper...in order for you to even have a conversation with anybody including me...you need to seem interesting and smart person...cuzz,i belive i can get a loads of trash-prople that will be totaly upfront and spontanious but his mom is his aunt at the same time and instead of toilet paper he uses his nails...well...so...no thanks:))))

You can also be a super open person, but you tell me u hate black people or any other group if people that makes you a racist...in my eyes...you're not more tht a fuckin insect...and don't get me wrong..when i joke i joke so hard tht you wanna puke...but tht's joking and a retard can separate a person tht jokes and a fuckin' hater...so...joke is healthy in all shapes and forms...but that's it....

My goal is that that i can be able to say anything about me and anything that's on my mind to literaly anybody in this world...so..as morpheus said in matrix..."all i'm offering os the truth,nothing else"..that's my definition of being free...the greatest thing ever...

So stop following the patterns of wht society wants you to be and how to look...decent is fuckin' boring...almost as being shy...fuck that shit...i fuck my wife two times a week,i jerkoff once sometimes twice a day...usualy to big but porn...there's no person i know i haven been beatin' off to as long as it's a person without cook and balls...tryied even tht but id didn' work..i guess i just like pussy too much...i have isshues tht i'm more thn happy to talk about...i like to be questioned about everything and everybody...any fuckin' time....

..and i just fuckin' adore people who are open for tht as well...so if you're open in tht way...welcome to my life...if you're not...get help,cuzz sooner or later you'll end up alone in dark screeming in your pilow wandering why you don't feel nothing but pain😢

Love each and every one of ya❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️