Post christmas..

Hey ya all...merry christmas to all of you who are celebrate it...some of you might know that...i don't have a huge respect for any religion...but even so i do respect people...so again...merry christmas and i hope you'll be happy,healthy...and surrounded with nothing but love and positivity:))

So...for me christmas was pretty much the same as any other day...gym,food cardio..stuff...i didn't had to work for a few days so that was better but any how it was ok...spending more time with my wife www.shapethefuckup.se and just being home feels nice...

Some of you might have read my previous article about my vision...or hope,that during our lifetime we live to see a zero poverty at least in present developed democratic countries or even better on earth in general...

I truly belive that the only reason why we can afford this great food we eat and appartments and houses we have is because somewhere somebody is working for one dollar or less A DAY...so we shouldn't be supprised when our goverments starting wars for apperently no reason...there is a reason...

They need to maintain the system spining...otherwise...your car,your house,your job,school or grocery store and even you...are history...

Yeah,yeah i know..it's a conspiracy,it's bullshit..but just think for a second like this...

Do you know why your boss is making more money than you...it's because you are earning more than you get...so one small part of that leftover is his...

You and your coleagues,and your boss and his boss and even the CEO of your company are earning more than you get...so the rest goes to the shareholders...the owners of your company...

They get to keep one part of that money for them selfs snd one has to go for tax...

Now you will say..and tax is for us...people..right...so it's good...well not realy...

The tax money are getting your country owners..and belive me every country has a few or even one owner..so he or she or them decide what to do with all that money...

So why would you think that you are the bottom flor of that pyramide...cuz where ever there are people more poor than you are...usualy...indirectly...they get less so you and i can have a slice of their cake..

Imagine...

Imagine this world just for one week to be without those poor and hungry people...let's say they make a global strike..just to stop doing what they were doing...and say we don't want to work anymore...

Your food,your clothes,your car,tv,phone,furniture,jewelry and every possible components of your everyday live would vanish...how eould you feel then...alone???...afraid???

Well that's exactly how more than two billion of people feel every fucking day...over two billion...that's nine zeros!!!

Well the way i see it is like...let's say you have five more brothers and sisters and your mom,dad and four of you are living this great life with warm house and electricity all around the place...so every room has light,tv set...hot water in every bathroom..but the reason why you have all that is because two of your siblings are in the basement whole their lives...spining around a dinamo for producing electricity...

Now how would you feel than? 

...of course..the third of world's population are not your siblings nor are mine either so....

why should we give a fuck right..well i certainly hope that we'll change that in our awareness cuz i know we can never succeed as a family without bringing those two of our siblings upstairs among us and start learning them our ways of living...

But the question remains...who's gonna produce the electricity than...

Well untill we invent a power plans..we all need to get down to that basement time to time and spin that device...

...not because it's easier,but because it's right!!! 

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...Stockholm,december 2061...

A dream...

Standig beside his flor to ceiling window the old man was looking at the wonderful panorama view from his 22nd flor appartment in dowtown area...it was amaizing....his favorite city in the world covered with white blanket of thick swedish snow.

There's nothing more cozy than watching cold,winter sight from a warm place all tucked in,having a coffee or a nice cup of tea..

The old man doesn't have coffe or tea..he's too occupied with having these fleshbacks from fifty-plus years ago...

He was sad..

And it wasn't realy perfect time to be sad since the whole appartment smelled great food his lovely wife was cooking as they were expecting any moment to hear a door bell and a magic noise their grandchildren usualy make...

Their children and grandchildren were coming over from tokyo and london so they can all spend christmas together...

As minutes were passing by,the old man was sinking deeper and deeper in his memories...

All the sudden the loveliest little voice interrupted his toughts...he turns around...and there she is...the most beautiful girl in the world,his youngest granddoughter emiko..

Hey my precious,when did you arrived..grandpa didn't hear you...emiko replied...we just came from the airport...mom,dad and akira are downstairs in the garage giving back the car we loaned and i sneaked out to see you....

The old man hugged little girl so hard...but emiko wasn't so young that she couldn't realize something was wrong..so she asked..grandpa,why are you sad...

oh i'm not sad sweety,i'm happy to see you...

You have a tear on your cheek,grandpa....

So the old man was totaly cornered...he slowly sat down on the flor and start talking...

You see emiko...i remembered one night,many,many years ago..it was nothing weird for that time but somehow..it made me sad even today after so many years...

It was a night just like this one,only without a lot snow,but it was christmas time and whole stockholm was covered in beautiful lights...

Your grandma was home and i was at my work...we were anticipating a big night in that restaurant your great grandpa owned..we had some stuff missing for a dinner service so i rushed in the grocery store to buy everything we need...

In the grocery store was packed with people...everybody were buying food and other stuff for christmas and the store was covered with nice lights,the christmas music was on,everybody were happy,happy,happy...except one man...

He was sitting just outside the store on the bare concrete,beside crash can...he had some jacket on him a hat...had no gloves so his hands were deep stucked in his pockets...sitting on some thin rug..,totaly freezed...

Why wasn't he home grandpa...why was he sitting outside in the winter,emiko was uppset?

Because,my dear...he had no home...we used to call them..homeless people...they lived on the streets,hungry and poor...

But weren't there shelther-colonies...like today???

No baby...at that time there was so few things done for them...we were all pretending that we carred,but nobody actualy did...

Usualy these people were sitting near metro entrance or some other place with big crowd bagging people to give them some food or money...but this man...this man was silent...he said nothing,he asked nothing...he was just looking in one spot,not moving...as he was saying....you can take everything away from me...but you won't hear me begging..even in that old jacket and torned hat...he looked proud..and we... we looked like disgrace!

The saddest part is that if all the people shopping at that grocery store gave that man just one fruit from their bag,just one bottle of milk,or one piece of a bread..that man wouldn't be hungry...but nobody did...nobody including your grandpa....

Why grandpa...why didn't you give him something...emiko sadly asked...

Because my love...at that time we were taught to care only about ourselfs and nobody else...

For all of us it was christmas time..for that man..it was another day he needed to survive...the old man shed a tear...

Emiko got close to grandpa's face,wiped his tear and said...well grandpa...at least now you don't have to worry about that...since all the people have to have a place to live and food to eat...

The old man hugged the little girl..and said...thank you emiko...you actualy made me feel a bit better...

...and that silence stopped with a loud voice from the hall...it was grandma anna shouting...

Andrija...our children have arrived:)))

Darn:(((

Well..thelma n' louise are jot coming...their momy was concerned about them being away for such a long time from home so she decided to leave them at her appartment and her brother will give them visit time to time,just to clean them and give them food so they don't get the impression of being alone...

Crap...we were realy happy about them but...well what to do..she promised that she's gonna bring the to us sometime when she's away for just one or two days..

Anyway...i was listening this interview of live legend himself...sir roger moore...on howard stern show...he's truly a legend walking among us and as they all say a saint as well since he's so dedicated to unicef and it's activities..and he's been well known around the world for that...

So howard asked him what was the greatest funeral he attended..he said,i can tell you which was the sadest...and it was the funeral of audrey hepburn...

Her son in his eulogy said that his mother have gethered him an his brother three weeks before she died aroun her bed,to tell them these words that kept her going all those years..in being herself...among many roles she had...she was also a god like figure in unicef as well...

So originaly this was written by sam levenson...he was inspired by the birth of his daughter...so he wrote these lines...

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. 
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. 
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. 

Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others".

I was so moved by this that i can't even explain...let alone the way that roger present it with a deep tone of grief in his voice...i'm telling you guys...so,so touching...

Anyway..just wanted to share this with you tonight...thank you:-/

Thelma & louise

Hay guys...whazz crack lackin'...well here not much..just same old..gym,job,jerk:)))

This weekend my wife and i gave a visit to this girl..a friend she's been havin'g some weird health problems recently..first with endometriosis and then she had a surggery on her brain..something went wrong..i don't know..didn't realy cared to ask too much i was just happy to see her smiling and looking good..

Anyhoo she invited us to hang a bit in her new appartment,among her other friends..and that's when we got the privilege to meet these two ladies...two black cats named thelma and louise:))

The pic was shoot in dark so that's why is shitty but never the less..the cats are amaizeingly cute...even more cuzz one of my cats was totaly black just like these cutie pies...

Well our friend is leaving sweden for christmas...she's goin' to london for 5-6 days so...guess who's gonna babysit the girls while she's away:))))

Well it's gonna be super cool havin' them around for a few days....

Well anyway thursday evening she's bringing them over to our place and then she's gonna explain us all the details...what they need what they like and stuff..

So we're realy lookin' forward to that..and i promisse i'm gonna upload a gzillion pics:)))

Take care everybody!!!

How make people like you

Hey everybody!!!

I was listening this lecture of some guy...talking about how should you present yourself to others in order for them start liking you...as a friend or as i don't know..a figure in their life...

And what he suggests is that you should try to make people feel goid about themselfs in your present..like..you don't want to tell them stuff that are not realy great about them...or ask them anything about that stuff but rather talk to them how good they are at something...

Also he says that you should start lightly imitate them...for example...if they start pulling their hair back time to time...you might start doing that too...maybe in a little bit different manner so it doesn't get weird...cuzz he thinkd that people like to hang with people similar to them...

So if a person start talking faster,you star talk a bit faster too...etc...

Well my point of view to that is FUCK OFF!!!

First of all...for me..that's manipulating people not hanging out or interact...it's suckin' each others cock...it's so boring...what kinda looser wants to hear what he's good at...shit!!!

Tell me how much i suck...to me that's the only way of getting closer to somebody...not to mention how great is to hear how other people see you so you maybe realize you do something wrong..

For me it was never a problem to make someone line me...it was always the problem to find a person interesting enought so i have a need to take a coffee with him or her or to talk..whatev...

In general...i don't like...people...first of all  90% of em has some sort of issue...and as soon as you get close to that issue..you can see their face gets that expression like when you need to fart...there's nothing more disgusting than that...

It's like walking on a fuckin minefield or simply talking to a retarted person...you're not educated for that so you'll never know what might trigger them...

If you're fat...and we meet..in first ten sentences of our conversation i need you to tell me something humiliating about your size...that way you're letting me know that you are aware of that and you are a humble about it...

It's not that i'll start making you feel like shit...it's just explains the fact that even though you have size problems..you're still a normal person...not in denial,aware of yourself inside and out...period!

Me...i always try to bring my education on a table...and that i do in the most shitty way...i alway say that i come from highly educated family...but i got to be a black sheep...wich i prefere to call A FUCKIN' MORON...and that's it!

Let alone the fact i make fun of myself about all bodybuilders are dickless donkeys...and by that i'm kinda giving you signals that you are alowed to aske me anything...or at least i think i do that..

But there's also another problem...yes...i do need a person that can tell me...like...well andrija,when your mom gets on thet chemotherapy again...could you give me her number cuzz i realy like to fuck a hairless pussy:)))

Yeah...yeah..i'm disgusting...but sorry for breaking this to all of you who never had a true friend..it's call joking...and the reason why it not supposed to be hurtfull it's because it comes from your friend...A FRIEND...a person in your life that means no harm to you...so it's only a joke...or what...he's realy gonna fuck my mom????

But beside that brutal joking i need a person that i can talk about...mine or his or her life phylosophy,or a big bang or about the cern project,social developement...you know...that kinda stuff...if we just keep on joking,it's boring too...

Anyways...i belive that you realy need to be enough to yourself alone and if there are some quality people on your site...you go get them...cuzz they are rare and precious...comparing to 90% sad,jealous,lying,cheeting,issues filled,weak,low life..cunts...

Hmmm...that felt good;)

Have great weekend my precious 10%:)))

Ice cream maker review...

Hi...

As i promised recently i'm gonna describe how did my new ice cream maker served me...and what i think about it in general...

First of all i like it because it's not like...super expencive...it's a bit too big but that's kinda my fault cuzz i have such small appartment...

Anyhoo...we thought we gonna be able to eat fresh ice cream as soon as we get home but...nope...you need to put that bowl in the freezer for at least eight hours...but...we still had icecream from our kitchen aid maker so..it was all right..

Tomorrow was the day...i made a mix...it was a bit of cocoa...milk...quark,water,sweetener..anda bit of moca-aroma...

Well...first of all i should've know better...since my appinion is that one should never mix a chocholate and anything that's sour....

I don't know...it's just not that good...taste weird...

But overall it was not that bad...the good sides are that the machine alone is quite easy to put together,clean and stuff...so it's not like an expedition everytime you want to eat ice cream...

second...comparing to kitchen aid...this one's got more precise that mixing system so you have less of ice crem stuck to the sides of a bowl...

And third...the fact that it got a hole on the bottom..makes you release the ice cream just when the thickness is right...if you open it before that...it's dripping cuzz it's too runny...if you wait too long,it won't come out..which is maybe better option...since you can always use spatula and place it in a bowl...

In the end,it all worked well...i even did some protein ice cream the next day before i went to gym and as i said,it's good that it doesn't take forever to put all together,and clean after you're done...

So all in all..thumbs up...buying this ice cream maker was a good call...

Take care!!!

First time duck...

Hey guys...how's life...well i hope good...i'm good..another weekend is behind us and another monday  is here...

Today i was thinking of writing about me cooking duck for the first time...

Some of you might not know but duck supposed to be served pink and not well done like most poultry...

I was watching of course the man him self ...gordon ramsay..cooking a duck several times and i was intrigued by that fact about serving it pink and i tought that it must have been a great texture of that file since is served like that but what to do..

First...it's not realy cheap....like little under 30€ per kilo..and kilo is the only pack i found...and second there isn't realy a whole bunch of places you can buy it...

But i found it,bought it...for all of you from stockholm...hemköp på t-centralen...if you be interested...

Anyways my wife and i bought it went home and the magic start happening:)))

First i took it out to rest a bit then i decided to use my grill pan which is heavy as fuck but great effect thought...

Ok...so everything was ready..so time to preapare those files before they touch the pan...i did what gordon did..i carved the skin and it realy get's crispier that way...

So from here i put it in the pan..skin down...but pan is completely cold...since you want from that skin to release it's own fat so that basicly you don't even have to add any additional fat,and this way taste is way powerfull!

So cold pan...duck in...high heat for short and then medium...

Skin side is got to be crunchy and kinda caramelized so be patient and wait..well at least 5 minutes maybe more...when you see that it looks delicious..turn it and you can cook it a bit and put in the oven or...in the oven right away...

Pre heated oven to 200 degrees 5-10 minutes...if you ask me...5 max...since i've heald it in for ten and it was a bit overcooked...

My oven was already hot since i was baking my first LCHF BREAD:))))

My wife www.shapethefuckup.blogspot.com have decided to go for lchf diet and even tho some of you must know i'm not a big fan of it...it's a free world and tolerance above everything:)))

I'd lie if i'd say that bread didn't taste a...fuckin'..maizin':)))

So here we are after 10 minutes i've took out my duck...i gotta tell you it was beautiful...

Now...since she's alowed to eat cream...in my pan...in all that fat that remained from the duck i've just put in a little bit of cream and let it reach the boiling point...

As i said..the duck wasn't perfect...should've been little bit more pink but the taste amaized me...

It totaly didn't taste like any poultry..it was like mixture of veal and liver..i don't know..but it was wild...i loved it...

So after that great sonday's dinner...there was nothing better to do than...

EVENING CARDIO!!!

What were you thinking...sex..you perverts:)))

My breakfast:)

Hey ya out there...what's up...me..i'm just takin' it easy...maybe 10 minutes ago my wife and i bought this soft ice cream maker...but since it's still in the box and we're in the middle of the city,i'm writing review about how did it go and was it worth of buying it...

But other than that...pretty much same old...workout,work...and eat..ALOT:)..

Well i watch what i eat but the amounts are abit bigger...i do cardio at least once a day,sometimes twice or even three times but...no specific goal...for now...

This morning i got up and did what i usualy do before my morning cardio..took a strong coffee..then first"breakfast"...and then...cardio for 45min. 

First i gotta say this coffee i have is realy good and super strong so it kinda wakes you up within minutes...it's some instant coffee that i got by total coincidence...

My uncle was in serbia at the same time my wife and me were...and i tried some coffee that he brought from america..where he lives and it was some starbucks instant coffee..realy good!

Well he gave the whole bag of that coffee to my sister and she was kind enough to share it with me and there i go...

I'm super coffee-geek..and i know that any instant coffee is not a great choice but for me there's good coffee and great coffee...no such thing as bad one:)))

But my "first breakfast" is also interesting...i call it first because it's not realy a breakfast,but by the amount of pills in my hand you can call it that:))

Ok...so before...i used to have one pill witch was multivitamins/minerals and that would be it...but through all this years of using supplements,i realized one thing..if you want to have...let's say creatine...

Don't buy product that consist aminos,taurine,protein...cancer cure AND CREATINE....you just buy creatine...period!!!

So if you want vitamines and minerals...buy them separarately...

So here i have...vitamin b complex,vitamin d...of course vitamin c..then also vitamin e...folic acid...why have i bought folic acid i have no idea but whatta hell...

Also there's magnesium,calcium as well i have this great product coenzym q10...it realy gives you an extra kick...

The guy who invented it actualy got the nobel prize...so it gotta be good...right:)

Also i have some arginine,inevitable saw palmetto and of course aminos...

This time i bought one if my favorites..witch are amino freak...and i'm super satisfied with 'em!

It's a wild berry taste...it looks disgusting but it's not bad at all...

So i have all this...before my morning cardio...and when i'm done,take a quck shower and hit the road...after all it's weekend time:)))

ISON..the judgement day!

Before 2012 it was mayan prediction about the end of the world..so i waited to see what's gonna happen but nothing...

Lately there are alot of diferent comments about this comet ISON how they call it...the most realistic i've heard by now is that the interaction between the comet and earth will start on 1st of december this year and it gonna end like within 7-8 days or even 15 i don't remember...

Now what this lady have claimed is that comet it self will not hit the earth but it gonna pass by earth...so we're good right..well not quite...see how they describe it,the comet is a big rock or something but that rock is never by it self...but always accompanied by smaller rocks as well wich are traveling along...

Those smaller ones are the ones we should be concerned about...because the fact they are "smaller" doesn't mean it can not damage earth severely...

Now how much of those smaller particels there is out there...well...we don't know untill it strikes us..if the comet pass us by with enough distance the earth gravity will not be able to influence on them...but if it comes too close..well...we'll see..

Well i personaly always liked more that scenario where catastrophye strikes and one moment your alive,next you're dead..end of story...

The worst case scenario for me would be  that we survive..or at least some of us but we like back into a stone age...no electricity,law,drinking water and shit so slowly we kill one another or even eat...

Any ways...i hope we gonna do well and if something happens to be as minor as possible...cuzz i don't know if i told you but i might compete again in spring next year...and how can i do that if the endo of the world occurs:)))

The purpose of life...

Well this summer we were at my friends new appartment and eating,having fun,they were drinking and since i'm realy not into drinking i decided to have a few puffs of some weed somebody had..

so of course since i haven't had that like 7-8 years plus...i got stoned like crazy...and then my crazy friend start asking me about big bang and where we come from...so of course we were laughing like crazy...but even the day after he was asking same questions..so i guessed it wasn't just weed speaking through him...

His point was why are ve living this life..what is our purpose in this world...you get up in the morning...drive faster than you should for not late for your job...there..you do stuff you don't give shit about for like..eight hours.

Get back home already half-dead...try to play with your kid while at the same time struggling not to fall asleep...

After maybe take a walk or not...put your kid to bed...then watch tv for a while untill you realize it's already too late and that you gonna be super-tired tommorow again..

Then you go to sleep and tomorrow...repeat all that again...

So he said...if i die tomorrow...of course,a few of you were sad but basicly nothing spectacular would different...so why are we alive..why do we exist...

Well frankly i don't have a straight answer to that and i don't belive nobody does realy...cozz how can you know for sure...

However...just today i was listening some man talking about how to make your life better and stuff..and he said...

I don't know the exact details but...i know that we came frome somewhere and we deffinitely going somewhere after we're done here...so the only reason i belive we're here is to prepare ourselfs for what's about to come...so when the time comes...we leave prepared...

But...since we can not learn 24/7 beside all that preparation and learning...we were brought in this world to have fun and enjoy life...to enjoy this greatest gifth we all got for free!

The worst part is that we people were tought buy our evirement to appreciate all the stuff we buy,and stuff that are expencive...but in reality,the greatest stuff in this world we've got for free,bit we so underappreciate them...so stupid!!!

Some of you know me well enough to know i don't belive in god...but i realy have problem with religion..and i can respect religion only when there's one religion for all man kind...but i do belive i some unexplained or unproven things such as this and such as law of attraction...

So my point of view is...live everyday with  dignity...always choose to love instead of hate...think hard what would you like to do to make you happy everyday and do it...try everyday to do stuff that will make you proud one day...do everything you can to die happy and satisfied with how you lived...never stop changing cozz... #thedaywestopisthedaywedie :)))

Thank you for reading!!

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What is the right thing to do?

  Hey everybody...how was your weekend...hope it was good...mine was working,at least a whole saturday but still good..no complains...

Recently i've put on a new manu at my job..where we offer a burger or fish'n chips or bread crumbed chicken plus beer for some...kinda lower price..

There's this guy coming over every so often,and he told me the other night that he's planing to bring his kid to our joint so both of them try my burgers since he thinks they look very delicious...

But at the same time i was just about to eat and on my plate was just tilapia file and some quark and veggies...

The guy is kinda chubby and he asked me...well i'm guessing that burgers are not very good calorie wise since i haven't seen you eating em'...

At that point i felt a bit duble standard and i start wandering...

I tomd him that i was thinking about putting on a few totaly "clean" dishes on the new manu since we always have that clean options ready( hehe,since i work there) and also just to test people how would they react when they realy taste the fish cooked without any fat or chicken too,with no fat rice or just boiled potato...and some very healthy\not tasty sauce...

I wandered then in general regardless a restaurant or food...what is the fuckin' right thing to do...

Is it better to try to educate people,when you know they're doing something wrong or just to always try to serve them some bullshit they would like to hear so they can feel better about doing things wrong and at the same time try to earn on them as much money you can and go home with your wife and kids and keep educating them and telling them what's realy right and what's wrong?

The same guy asked me...what's not good calorie wise in that burger..i tought...maaan everything...sure you have some good protein source and some veggies but one sauce is based on mayo bbq sauce is like...sugar...bread,bacon,cheese,fries...fuck..do you realy need an explanation...not to mention that that patty was made of beef with 20% fat!!!

I told him all that...hehe my father in law who's also a owner was lookin' at me like...what tge fuck is wrong with you...you're saying shit about our food..but anyways...the guy started to lecture..

He said...well one EXPERT on a nutrition told me and my friend that we should keep ourselfs from carbs and we're good...

I realy wanted to say...well mister NUTRITION EXPERT...how's that workin for you...cuzz you already can be caracterized as obese!!!

Why didn't i sad that...

I know...he'd get offended...but..why...i would be just reveling him the truth wich he's obviously denying...

So i still have this dilemma...actualy i was always asking myself not that i'm refering that i'm smarter of anybody else but if you realize that you're living in the land of blind and you can see...should you telling them what you realy see and takkng a risk that they might hate you and also have nothing from your honesty...or...

Just keep saying them what they wanna hear...and first...they'll keep listening you...respect you and give you as much as they can just to keep you telling them your lies???

When by the way...we all live a very short lives...and as soon as you know...you'r old and about to die..

Is it better to die like an averige with pride for doing the right thing whole your life or to die rich in the cozyness of your welth knowing that you've lived you're life in abundance:-/

What is right thing to do???

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