Dilemma...

Hey ya all...wazz up...today i was at my old gym wich is DELTA GYM my competition team as well and as always it was nice to workout there,to meet the old crowd,chat a bit...and stuff...

Of course as i was expecting thay all asked same question..."when you gonna compete next time"???

And honestly..i don't know...i'm pretty much like...if i don't have everything prepared in advance i would never decide to just try out and see what'll happend...

I want to be as focused as i can be...of course i need to work and do laundry,and cleaning and stuff..but the last thing i want is to be stressed about the money.

So...even if i do decide to compete...wich is going to be around spring time next year i have a bit of a dilemma...

See as we know...it's all about money in present way we live...so sport is not anything diferent...

There's this biggest federation of bodybuilding called SKKF and every competition here in sweden belongs to them...

Every one of them...accept one...wich is this BMR-grand prix...

Now i personaly look at things like this...i never compare myself with other competitors,i never aim to win..i just want to be the best i can be onstage...

So for me if there's one bodybuilder in the world better than i am..then i belong to "THE REST OF THEM"...and there are waaay more than one that's better then me..

...so for me...choosing wich competition i might attend os all about when it's gonna happend...so that i can have a proper pre contest preparation so i don't need to rush into it...

This bmr is just perfect...but...there's always that BUT...

As i understand bmr grand prix belongs to another federation called NABBA or NABA or something..and thay say if you compete for nabba these skkf can give you a penalty not to be able to compete for a year or two or stuff...and that kinda sucks....

So the normal question would be...why the fuck you need to compete for bmr...go for some other...

The main reason for that is...STOCKHOLM !

It is gonna be held here in stockholm...and for me,that means at least 5.000 swedish crowns lower costs...since i get to go there with metro and i don't have to pay for the travel and at least weo nights hotel...and that's like more than 600 euros more to spend on my muscles or even in another competition...

How ever i also wouldn't like for somebody bust my balls efter the show...

So...i wander...what should i do...hmmi might just go to norway and compete there...they say that their prand prix is realy good...i don't know...

What i do know is that i'm not a polititian nor a buisness man..my job is to bring my body and form to the best possible level..if and when i get that...i belive thare's gonna be some competition i'll find...so...i think i'll stick with doing my homework and see what will happend!!!

Eat clean,train mean:)))