Nice:-)

Hey you guys..today i was super excited about the fact that the jurnalist from "body" magasin contact me a few days ago sayng that he would like to do an interview with me online so they can publish that in their next issue...and early afternoon he have finaly sent me the questions and they're great...it's totaly visible that he was reading my blog and did his homework so the questions were great...

Unfortunately i couldn't reply to him right away since i was kinda in the middle of runing my wife's training...yeah,she wants me to be her pt and she even wants to pay me...i mean not like that...but with money...how about that...

Any hoo,as soon as i got to my job i started writing answers one by one as fast as i could...in the mean while i was chating with the same journalist on facebook,and my wife was sending some links of apartment that she wants us to by,asking me what do i think...and on top of that..some people arrived into a dining room wanting to eat and my food was ready too...so i was eating,making food for these guests,chating with the guy and with my wife and answering my interview questions...how that gonna come out..fuck me if i know...

Any way...i'm realy excited..in a good way:-)))

107,0

Yes...before this sunday i had 107,0kg...but sunday was my eating day and this time it wasn't rice and potatoe...this time was pizza,sausages,bread,chocolate spread and unlimited amounts of two of my buddies mr.ben and his friend mr jerry:-)

Well first of all i had two diferent tastes...first one is blondie...something and the orher one is something with cookie dough..both are the latest ones and i can tell you right now they taste delicious...but for people who love chocolate taste icecream my wife...she was not thrilled...the only thing that i didn't like is the fact that two of these tasted pretty much same...but same-good...

Pizza was american with a thick crust we had a home delivery..and it was good and all the other crap we had were good too so i consider it a successful crapy day for me:-)

Training wise was even better i had like not more that 4 hours of sleep last night,i had 600g of egg whites and a bowl of sald for breakfast and my workout was amaizing...i was very strong,aggressive and i was sweating like a pig...

Today as you're guessing i'm gonna be having a no heavy carb day..but i don't think i would feel exhausted or anything so i'm on my way to work,when i get back i'm gonna have one mor cardio before bed and that's it...

Madness...

There's this guy in serbia...totaly normal person,never had problems with the law,never treated from mentaly illness or anything...just snapped one morning,took his gun and shot and killed his kid or kids,then went out and as he entered his nighbour's houses,he shot everything that's moving to kill...

He killed like thirteen people some of them around ninety and among them a two year old child...when finaly police showed up he menage to shoot his wife and finaly himself...and he actualy didn't died there but he an his wife were transported to a hospital and i don't know wheather they past away as well or not...

Every now and then we have this cases of people snapping and just make a riot...but for me...the most important question in any of those cases is...why would someone decide to do such thing...

I mean it always buged me...like are we born with the genetics of a murderer or filantropist or what ever...because if that's the case that explains us that for those people with murderer genetics there's no cure...that who they are...that's what they are made of...and there's absolutely nothing we can do about it!

But what if that's not the case...what if we are all born with ABILITY to become great individuals while we also have ability to become monsters and the only factor that will decide who we gonna become is nothing more but the evirement we are live in...

Think about it...there's a kid from some war zone country...he or she were born there so there's no other reality for them but war...they are not aware of fact that there's a whole world out there with no war,weapons,bombs and shit...so that kid grovs up and now he or she is like sixteen and what do they know...well they don't know how to read and write,they don't know about science,or art...bit they sute know how to handle a machine gun...because they picked that up from the evirement they are live in

Eventualy...they've been sent to the line of battle...can you guess what they will do there...yeap...they gonna do stuff they were taught...kill!!!

Are they killers...of course...they are cold blodded killers...were they born to be that...well in order to understand better this...let's say that that same child was somehow adopted by let's say well aducated british family...would that child be speaking it's native laguage...no,he or she would be speaking fluently english with a british accent...would kids like this new how to handle a gun...of course not...would they be murderers...hell no...they would behave just as same as anybody else from their everement...

Now you ask a question...well ok,but how come that there are people who were born in a free and normal society and still decede to comit murder or rape or anything bad...well...i'll say just this and i'll let you guys think for your self..

Just think again then...how actualy FREE and NORMAL is any society when you have their product people murderers and rappists...because from where i see...the level of how one grup or a country is civilized is judged by their lowest members...how they look...what they do and how they have been treated by their grup....think about that next time you pass by subway entrance in the middle of a winter and you see this homeless women sleeping on a sheet made of plastic bags...and then...try to be proud about your civilization...

Every and each one of us is poduct of our evirement..there are no geneticly given people to be doctors or serial killers...there's just our civilization...teching them diferent ways...

check in...

hey now,
here i am home,lying in my bed..no training for second day now since i'm sick....:-(...well i'm not SICK-sick but it seams like i catch a cold or something and i don't have high fewer or anything but my nose is giving me a little bit of hard time and i'm a bit slow but nothing serious...

  anyhow...i think i might train tomorow since today i feel way better than yesterday,but it depends how i feel tomorow when i wake up.

my body weight is doing good too...this morning my scale showed 108,2 wich is freat considering that yesterday i didn't train at all and i also didn't reduced my daily calories...deliberately...i consider that necessary for my recovery,but today i'm gonna do something diferent..

today...i'm gonna go down to zero carbs...well it can never be zero since i'm eating salad,avocado and green beans..but no heavy carbs what so ever,my protein intake will go up to at least 500g,and i'm gonna reasonably increase fats..up to...not more that 100-120g

i belive this will be a shock to my metabolism,and a bit of a boost to my testosteron levels,with that extra fat a'm gettin'....and hopefuly tomorow i'll be ready for another win...

i miss my gym:-(

  

Personal Trainer...

Hm...funny...once i was a personal trainer..it was ok,but i didn't realy liked the job that much since most of my clients were undisciplined about food and most of them wanted to loos weight,so it was pretty fuckin' useless,but i did it for the money...and that's actualy the funny part...i used to charge about 1 euro or less than 10 sek or mabey 1,5$ PER HOUR!!!

I always knew that i have to work something,and while i find something better i need any job..and at that moment that was the price i had to charge.

I was thinking of trying to do the same thing here in sweden,not for same cash though...but you know...you spend time in the gym,wich is way better than spending time at the back stage of a shitty restaurant,and you work with sober people..but...i don't know...mabey some day who knows...i definitely have the credibility for that...not that i don't know that those fancy p.t. will always have way more clients but who cares...

He..today was funny at the gym...i kinda got a bit of a comfirmation of my credibility...i was workin' out,just minding my buisness..and around me were couple of guys...normal looking people,and one of them was a kid...like around 18 or somethin'.

All at once,the kid aproaches me,i take away my headphones and start listening...he was asking me how should he make his trapezius bigger...and i just finished my traps and was heading to do triceps...so i started explaining him how he should perform shrugs and standing rows..about his elbows at shrugs and about weights in general and that kind of stuff.

While i was talking to the youngster,i could't help noticing that other guys were listening as well but little bit from the distance,couse i'm gussing they didn't wanted to look roude...and i was quite ok with that...

But the funny part is just about to happend..as i finished my short conversation with the boy i immediately continued my workout...and as soon as i finished my first set and got up i saw all four or five guys doing trapezius exercises just the way i explained the minute ago...coincidence...i doubt:-)))

It was funny but any way...i'm glad that i was able to help but it was realy funny:-))))

Recipe For A Successful Relationship

You know when you reach that point in the relationship where it seems that you're standing still and you not taking a step further...well,most likely it's your fault..and most likely you're gonna loose that person for that...an the reason for that is your dishonesty...yeah you read right...

You know that feeling when you need to talk with someone but not like shitty talk but something's buging you but you just can't talk to your boyfriend or a girlfriend,husband,wife...what ever...so you decide to call your mom,or dad or your childhood friend...that's the point where you buring your relationship to the ground!

There was a girl in subway makin' ful of her self since she was about to get married the day after so one of tha tasks her friends gave her was to stop a random guy and to ask him what is necesary for a good marrige...i told her straight out...honesty... she was like...what do you mean...i said,to be bruttaly honest with the person you're married with...and i realy mean that.

I remember i was mabey5-6 years old and my mom,my sister and i was in orchard picking some plums and two of them were having THE talk hoping that i won't understand shit...but,since i'm so smart...well you know:-)

Any way...my mom was explaining how was for her first time,what gets large and hard,what you put where and stuff but after a while they talked about relationship and when is tve right time to have sex...so my sister asked her that...like,let's say i have a boyfriend,how do i know when's the right time...

My mom haven't said a lot of smart stuff in her live but this thing,this answer is a fuckin revelation!

She said...darling,when you feel totaly comfortable to farth in front of your boyfriend...that's time when when you may be sure that you are totaly comfortable with one another!

That's ingenious!

Now i already know what's your respond to this...that's disgusting,your mom is sick,i would never do such thing...some things are just private....well it might seem disgusting to you,but let me tell you what's even more disgusting...two people living under same roof for years,sharing good bad,have kids everything...but they still feel uncofortable to farth in front of one another...every now and then...i can tell you right now...that kind of couples,van not realy even talk with 100% honesty...because you know why...they still have that fucking mask from the begining and they are still too shy to take it away...

You have a friend that you're comfortable to farth with or mabey your parents...but you can't be comfortable to do that with the person you mabey gonna spend whole your fucking life with...that's sick and disgusting!

Now i'm not saying that we should constantly farth and shit in front of each other in order to be happy...but you definitly neeeed to feel comfortable about doing that every now and then....that's also who you are,that's also part of you...why you wanna hide that,why cutting that off...

With that level of openness,you might have a good start,because that's not like the ultimate goal...but it's a hell of a check point...

So stop pretending of being all sexy and desirable and simply be you...and if he or she falls for you,then you know that they love a real you!!!

Farthing...a recipe for successful relationship!

Bitterness

before...in my previous life,i could say for my self that i was a bitter man...i had no money,at least as much as i needed...and don't get me wrong..i still don't have as much as i need it's just,now...it would be rude of me to just say''i don't have money''...considering all the poverty in the world...any way...no money,no propper job,no solid realtionship...i was a mess...but we all are aren't we..

of course...that kind of seeing my self made me a bitter man...always complaining about stuff,making excuses for everything...why can't i have this,or that....mess!

ok...years went by,i stopped beeing a bitter bich...but i still like to analyse what's that that makes people bitter...i mean...ok.now i live in a better place,have some kind of a decent job,and it's not realy a great one but it's a job,i got married to a girl i've been after for a buch of years...but i still have a million stuff to be bitter about anyway...

what i think...is that one of the greatest ways to get bitter is when you decide to become somebody else...and what the fuck do i ´mean by that...

well...do you know how do you develope love for a certain things..at least i do like that...you start doing a few things that you feel interest for...let say..it's singing,playing piano and fishing...as the time goes by...you realise that at some of this stuff you're good,at some you're ok and at some you just suck....

so when you do fishing you just do it great...everytime you go there you have a great catch,a few guys out there already admire you and you start even sharing your techniques with others,they start listen for what you have to say...so it's great...

piano thing...njaaaaaa...it's ok,but it's not as far as smooth as fishing...you can play a bit but you're no chopin or anything...so you are mabey little bit below averige,but it's fine...

finaly..your singing sucks...you have a lousy voice,you have no feeling for rythmics,you can not hit the right notes...you just not good...

so what do you do...well you become a pashionate about fishing...you dedicate most of your free time to it,and you feel great,look great...and everythings works for you perfectly...every now and then you play a piano...just a couple of songs,and that's it...and you stop singing totaly,and when you wanna hear a good singing you just play mariah or freddy...

and there you go...you are a happy individual,satisfied with your life,and you just enjoy yourself...right...well yeah if it wasn't that fucking thing that completly fucks you up....and you know what that thing is....A FUCKIN PRICE TAG...yeah...

even though you are great at fishing...you don't wanna be a fisherman...because it doesn't bring you a lot of money,for exampel...or not a lot of people find you interesting beeing a fisherman...and what do you want...well that's the shitty part...you want a fuckin approval from your envirement...you want people to constantly tell you how good you are,and to be liked by people..and you see some good singers having all that every fuckin day...so what do you do...you give away your dreams,and stuff you were good at..and start running after a singing carreer...

you start,looking for some conections,false recomendations,just to show up once on some big event,because you think that somehow people will start loving you..but the truth is...they never will...becouse you know why...BECAUSE YOU CAN'T FUCKIN SING...

doesn't matter how great their lives are...it's not you..and it sure the shit ain't your life..you are a fisherman...that's who you are..that's your talent,that's what you're good at...and doesn't matter how un-cool that might be...that's all there is...that's the only aspect in your life that you can actualy make some sort of progress...and progress will make you a happier man..and constant failure as a singer will make you...you know what????

A BITTER FUCKIN' MAN!